Does it all seem like a game to you?

My peers and I have been able to check our grades 24/7 since middle school, stress over every in progress, yet to be graded or revised assignment. Similarly my life at times feels defined by this data, apps on my phone chart my screentime, the frequency with which I have migraines, and every movie I've ever seen. All this data, my bank account spending, my grades, the books I've read on goodreads, the points I've earned with insomnia cookies are all trying to glob onto my sense of self, my sense of achievement, and my priorities all at once. As a result none of this feels like anything more than video game stats and high scores I've coveted and dedicated my time to. I'm trying to win at grades, at spending, at consuming media, at screentime, at health, and basically assuming this is all my life is or will ever be is striving for higher stats.